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VISIONARY
TEACHINGS by Gill Schwartz
MY BRAIN IS A CELL IN THE COSMIC BRAIN,
MY MIND IS A MOTE IN UNIVERSAL CONSCIOUSNESS
I gratefully do my offering and invocation and move into the silence
of meditation. The focus of my consciousness settles deeper and deeper,
away from outer circumstance and concerns, far beneath my usual sense
of self. I'm taken into a vastly open and free visionary state.
Invisible beings -angelics or E.T.s, I can't tell which- gather all around
me. I sense there are seven, but they are in such a state of resonance
with each other, they seem to be a multitude. While four of them hold
the energies of the cardinal directions around me -their limbs, or wings
entwined- the others hover over me and begin their work. Without disturbing
or causing me any discomfort, I feel them psychically undo the sutures
at the top of my skull. A trough is opened, front to back. I sense the
immense space it now accesses.
Gently and with coordinated precision, they connect many leads to the
vital nexus points in my brain, junctions for all my mind's patterns.
These leads are made of the same organic substance as my brain, flexible
and translucent, and they meld into it with ease. It seems there are 40
or 50 such leads extending out from around my brain when they are finished.
It takes me some while to accustom myself to the resulting expansion of
my psyche, open and radiantly aware far beyond any of my previous glimpses.
There's awing, intriguing new potentials of knowing my whole life.
The helping entities stay with as witnesses to my odyssey and give me
adequate time to explore and savor these marvelous perceptions. Along
the way, they share insights through direct transference of thoughts and
awarenesses, but do nothing to restrict my wandering quests throughout
this Process.
They now take my focus to a more subtle level, a higher dimension of consciousness.
From here I watch as the helpers meld the ends of my leads with the ends
of leads extending out from other beings' brains, many human, others not.
As our psychic energies thus merge, I experience each of them as I experience
myself, as they experience themselves, in the most personal, intimately
familiar way. I know each from their inner most being. Although our individualities
remain distinct -there is room in this realm for paradoxical being- in
free flight, I can flow from one psyche to another with the simplest gesture
of intention. With wonder, bafflement, sometimes terror or exstacy, each
merging gives me a totaly different world view, another rich personal
history through which to know every aspect of life . On that soul level,
I experience each one's callings and afflictions, the gifts they bring,
thoughts and feelings, their most personal memories and longings, their
lessons waiting to be learned, karmic debts to be paid. Each one's whole
universe becomes mine, becomes me. Not only the universe they know, but
also the unique slice of reality they have access to, known and unknowable.
In joy and gratitude, I experience each of these souls -of the greatest
imaginable variety- with as much ease and naturalness as I experience
my own. And how much more wonderous my own becomes.
Although born an empath and psychic, I had always felt personally separate,
isolated. I'd never imagined such bonding to another's inner being. I
gasp with the fulfilling completeness of the experience. Tears of pleasurable
release well up in this most complete companionship. A complete quenching
of my Aloneness.
My consciousness thus opens and expands further with each such connection
with another's. Through each mind-merging, in extending and receiving,
linking us through these meldings, an incredible multidimensional grid-work
forms. The helpers transmit the knowing to me that this grid-work is an
aspect of the Wholelife Energy Bond.
After seeming millenniums of exploration in this realm -time continues
to exist, but in a completely nonlinear way- the guides take me up to
the next higher, subtler realm of being and perception, a third level
of consciousness. Our grid-work matrix of linked brains, the WEB, on this
exalted level of consciousness, manifests as the Cosmic Brain, of which
each ordinary brain is but a single cell. Though my own psyche is like
a speck somewhere across the galaxy of this Universal Mind, in awed wonderment,
I experience Cosmic Consciousness as it sweeps through mine. In it, all
that I know is infinitely truer and encompassingly realer than I could
ever grasp while isolated in my self-created life and its narrow world
of perception.
The universal synergy between us all, the resonating interrelationships,
the Wholelife Energy Bond holds me spellbound. Life-transforming realizations,
that before were mere glimpses, now are blatantly real to me. I'm enabled
to witness, in depths of awareness beyond imagining, the enormous, imponderable
meta-thoughts of this Cosmic Mind expressing Divine Consciousness and
Intention. The Divine Light permeates the Cosmic Mind. It has purpose
that far transcends my comprehension, yet includes and manifests through
me.
The shear mass and momentum of these Thoughts are like land masses moving,
separating and colliding to form rifts into which beautific oceans of
knowing pour or buckling up to form mountain ranges that reach the highest
realms of transcendence.
And each of us in this matrix, though no more than a mote in this vastness,
plays some role in it all. The sense of inner healing and rightness tells
me with vivid clarity, this is where I belong, where I am seen, recognized
and welcomed. This Wholelife Energy Bond is my rightful Home.
My witnessing awareness, free of all concepts and definitions, is passionately
overwhelmed with the Presence pouring throughout the Cosmic Consciousness.
My whole being, through to my essence, is touched and filled with this
Splendor. My deep understanding is open and in total communion with Essential
Truth.
When I slowly come back to myself, to time, to the real world, I'm both
elated and thoroughly drained. I lay back on my meditation mat and look
around this room -the cracked and not too clean walls, the futon in the
corner with the rumpled sheets, my simple altar and Mandala on the wall
above it. I look out at the tarnished cross atop the church's age discolored
roof outside the dusty window.
Still, I know, my brain is a cell in the Cosmic Brain. My being is a doorway
to the Infinite.
Vision and reality. Reality and vision.
Copyright Nathaniel Schwartz 2003 |
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