VISIONARY TEACHINGS
by Gill Schwartz

QUANTUM COSMOSIS
Guided by my Council of Helpers: A Personal Visionary Exploration of the Four Cosmic Realms
that Link Divine Intention and Everyday Life.

This Council of five Helpers came at my desperate prayer to help heal or shed my wound tattered heart. Enslaved by its fear-filled reactivity and barbed defensiveness, I couldn't love or accept the love I needed from others. It sealed me up so that my light was not being lived. Though these Helpers came in answer my prayer, they clearly manifest universal realities.

Therefore I share these visionary experiences I've gratefully received with the prayer that they also help you connect with your helpers and guides, that they help benefit you with healing and wholeness.

These five Helpers are my contact beings in the Four Realms. They reveal and manifest how Divine Intention is transmitted in quantum leaps from one Realm to the next. Each of these Helpers has a role in a particular level of thess transmutations called Cosmosis. This is the underlying purpose of the Cosmos which is to materialize spirit and to spiritualize matter. This is the guiding impetus throughout all Realms.

These Helpers also convey the life-force patterns formed by my deeds, foibles and choices back to Source as indications of my fulfilling the possibilities of the Divine Intention for my life. My Helpers personify and are the means for me to be more consciously aware of the workings of these other Realms. My interactions with them are the most empowering, intimate and considerate I can imagine.

In my visions, I experience these four Realms as distinct, each with it's own splendors and challenges. Interlocking these is a Rainbow Bridge, a gradation of energies, that extends across the ocean of Becoming, from the subtlest Celestial Realm to the dense Four Square Realm of space, time, matter and thought.

As that prayer of my need was answered through vision, the first Helper that graciously appeared was Metatron, an Archangel of thePresence. In her splendor, she appeared with three sets of wings, feathers gloriously extended out in a wide arc behind her. Each set of her wings were a different radiant color, indescribable in earthly words.

Her features were too resplendent for me to see anything clearly but for her Third Eye and her Heart. Both of these also had three distinct layers, the same soul-colors as her three sets of wings. The luminous grandeur and caring she emanated awed me. A loving Feminine Presence from the Heart of God. In total devout surrender to her, my heart and third eye merged with hers.

Through this, at once, I was graced with being immersed in Source, the Unmanifest Divine Presence -a blast furnace of Light-Being-Love that seared away all of my temporal self, leaving only my consciousness in beatific entrancement. Absolute Identity. Unutterable Splendor.

Blissfully immobilized, dissolved into Being, at one with Highest Consciousness and Love, I could behold this Highest Reality shine through all dimensions and forms. This glorious Aliveness is the Ground and Goal of all becoming, the Splendor that glows in everything. A leaf's springtime unfurling, our life's dreams and longings, the death of a child or a star, each expresses and carries some aspect of the Eternal coming into form and passing away. All that is, is a fleeting guise of the inexpressible Highest Reality.

My awareness absorbed in hers, Metatron taught me. Her Heart touching mine, she took me down through my heart's three layers, the depths of love. The outermost layer, the one I knew as my wound-tattered heart, was entwined with the world around me. This was the prison of my past, it's pains and longings, its sentiments and hatreds.

The next deepest layer she revealed was my heart's soul. Here were my innermost emotions and passions, the meanings and truths of my being. This I recognized as the source of who I really felt myself to be. Then, enfolding me with caring and security, Metatron took me to a place I would have feared to go alone. The deepest layer, the awing Heart of my heart, where it merges with God's.

The Divine Love bubbled up from these depths of my Heart as purely as it came through Metatron's. As I soaked in this Love, I knew it was beyond all form or expression. It was as ineffable as Spirit itself. Yet it quenched a thirst I'd carried my whole life.

As I drank and drank of this innermost Nectar, Metatron also took me into resonance with her Third-Eye. My consciousness was absorbed into a luminous, shadowless field of Awareness, a unified field of consciousness where everything was revealed in its fullness. All was evident, understandable beyond the need for thought.

She revealed that this Celestial Realm of the angels and ascended masters was the first step in Cosmosis. This is the underlying purpose of the Cosmos, to materialize spirit and to spiritualize matter. This is the guiding impetus throughout all Realms. This reciprocal process gives Divine Intention means of manifestation and is the Presence as the Heart of every being.

Thus merged with Metatron, I witnessed the transmutation that she, and all the hierarchy of angels, performed to formulate the Inexpressible into cosmic intelligence with 'messages' transmitted from the Celestial Realm. This expedites the quantum leap from the ineffable Divine Intention into a possibility form.

And, with the kindest care, she transposed a drop of that Outpouring into a personal 'message' for me. The meaning of it was far beyond my mind's grasp, but it moved through my being like illuminating music.

I was left with a Knowing. "Who I think I am shapes how I experience what happens. It all depends on how I hold it."

Metatron released me from her embrace with a knowing that we were now joined. She let me descend into the next Realm, the Etheric.

In the Celestial Realm I was a formless spirit. Everything rested in the Eternal. No sense of time in any way. My consciousness was free of limitation, clear of assumptions, boundless enough to hold whatever it perceived.

As I was gently transposed down into the Etheric Realm, I was aware of an energy matrix running throughout it. It was a cloud like form I took, but I could sense the grid of lines of force swirling through me that radiated great potentiality. Time, of a sort, also began. Not narrow, linear, sequential time, but more an awareness of inherent unfolding in things. Intention, purpose was in the nature of this Realm.

The Helper that appeared to me here was an Ascended Master who had finished with his need to incarnate eons ago. He is one of those who mission warrant calling them 'the Lords of Karma'. Although he never revealed anything about himself or let me see him as anything more than a glowing egg-like shape, he was open and cordial in helping me understand his role in Cosmosis. Because, apart from being on my Council, he guides my High Self, I call him Elder Brother.

Elder Brother soon brought me into resonance with himself as Metatron had done. Now I recognized some familiarity in the process and suspected I'd been taken through if often, but not knowingly. I was stunned as I merged with his Cosmic awareness. It held the incredible complexities and interactions of this Realm's etheric matrixing. Through his consciousness, I grasped that this served as a formatting for the Celestial Realm's 'messages' to resonate with the individual cocoons of karma to open the possibly to become manifest through their personal thoughts and actions.

The Lords of Karma also work with Storehouse Consciousness, the Akashic Record. This holds the memory traces of every soul's unfolding—every detail, pattern and purpose. The Lords of Karma use their incarnation-ripened wisdom to formulate the karmic patterns to help align each individual's process with the expression of the Divine Intention. The Ideal is that each person's personal fulfillment and their spiritual expression can be in vitalizing resonance.

As well as guiding individual lives, the Lords of Karma also focus on larger soul group karmas and callings. I saw these various facets of the overall Impulse as different colored Rays emanating from this Etheric Realm down through the Astral to be concretized in the Earthly world.

Elder Brother offered his leave-taking by communicating to me through meta-consciousness, "Let the higher experience be your guide, rather than diluting it to grasp it easier."

Inspired with his counsel, a complement to the one Metatron had given me, I was brought into the next, denser Realm, the Astral. Here I witnessed those complex matrix configurations created by the Lords of Karma merging with the lives of individual souls. These aligned with their personal Ray from the Etheric Realm as part of their vehicle of manifestation. As I witnessed this, I gained a clearer sense of my own individuality, the complexity of my personal consciousness. The subtle astral matter congealed around my cocoon of soul and karmas. Even though it couldn't hold any definite features, I felt recognizably myself. The flow of time was more focused here too, more, restricted, tangible. A new, denser level of sensing opened for me too in order to grasp the greater detail of things.

The Astral Realm, as I perceived it, was peopled with many varieties of souls and soul-like beings, at many levels of evolution and expression. Though it seemed intriguing, I had no other interest at that moment but to find the next of my Council of Helpers to guide me here. At my calling out in prayer, its third member appeared, Kalananda, an East Indian monk. His name can mean 'the Bliss of Time' or the 'Ecstasy of Darkness'. The goddess Kali's name is a form of this same word.

Kalananda had been active in my life from early on. From my teens I was drawn to Indian music and Oriental philosophy, and as a young man I studied classical Indian dance. In my thirties I was drawn to study Yoga. It was clear to me that I was remembering these skills, not just learning them. Before long I felt the call to teach Yoga myself.

Later, I was especially aware of Kalananda's presence during my years in India. There, with my ease of adapting, I realized he was the soul of my previous incarnation. One instance of Kalananda's presence was on my first trip to Southern India, where I was drawn to spent most of my time. I heard his voice say, with great pleasure, as clearly as if I were inwardly speaking to myself, "Now we are going home." Kalananda's deep longing to merge and manifest Source gift me incredibly.

But as well as I knew Kalananda before in these ways, now as a member of my Council of Helpers, I came to know him in a new way. He became a teacher and guide, able to help me directly grasp how the abstract grid works of karma from the Etheric Realm are utilized in this Astral Realm of souls. The power of the individual soul gives reality to its interweaving webs of karma, happenstance and Divine Intention. It transforms them into personal reality and meaning. It manifests them through an individual's thought and action.

Seeing him then joined with the other members of my Council on the Rainbow Bridge, I recognized those characteristics I'd found difficult in him as really aspects of his role in the great coming-into-being of the Divine Intention. This acceptance and understanding are vital in the healing of my heart. Now I could begin to honor those similar traits of my own that had troubled me so. This awareness of Kalananda's calling helped me grasp the nature of my own, beyond circumstance and conditioning.

Kalananda bowed to me with joined palms at his chest in the gesture of honored leave-taking. "It is a trust-based offering of the lower to the higher. That is a way to hold to the All," he advised me with heartfelt devotion.

That gesture prepared me to bridge the next quantum leap down into the Four Square Realm of space, time, form and thought. I was back in my worldly self, the familiar life-view and attitudes. With the detached perspective of my return journey here, I was back in the defended, hypersensitive self-image, feeling patterns and body sense I knew as 'me.' Yet it seemed that all the other aspects of my being I'd just been graced to experience were, somehow, encapsulated in that 'me', that bit of the Four Square Realm I inhabit.

I found myself in desperate conflict. While my higher selves held witness and the means to the incredible possibilities the process of Cosmosis offered, I recognized the bondage in my archaic, habitual sense of self. This pain from my frustrated potential was also part of the heartache.

Then, as I pondered this torment, my two Helpers from the Four Square Realm appeared, together. I was startled to see two such dissimilar beings so obviously bonded. One was Bodhidharma, a kind soul of pure and limitless self-giving love. A fully compassionate heart with ready hands to express its caring. His long dark beard and hair were partly hidden behind the cowl of his blue monk's robe, pulled low to shield his tender eyes and melting heart from the pitiful suffering about him. His hand was held, tips of his thumb and first finger touching, in the auspicious gesture of peace. In spite of his name, he reminds me of Jesus as well as Buddha. He also gives me access to that deep well of the Heart that Metatron had revealed to me.

His partner, and, as I still gradually come to understand, his complement, was Ookmah. Ookmah is from another planet or dimension. He is as intelligent as his companion, but, as he is obviously descended from reptiles, he is reptile-minded. His rows of pointy teeth are bared. Smile and viscous grimace look the same on him. Green, scaly skin, blood red eyes, and taloned claws complete the picture. He sums up his viewpoint simply. "Humaans", he hisses. "Wonderful when roasted, but very bothersome when alive."

When I get angry, he is quick to lend me suitable images and emotions. Ookmah's perceptions of people and situations are ruthlessly clear and detached. He also gifts me with a fervor and decisiveness that has enabled me to live an adventurous, fairly fearless life.

I'd contacted them both before in visioning and healing work, but I'd never imagined them relating with each other, different as they are, let alone being partners. But they truly are. When I call on one, I now realized, the other also appears. For much of my life the rage of one was the protector of the other's vulnerability. Bodhidharma and Ookmah are each other's inverse and completion.

"We are just as real and important to this human self of yours as God is," Ookmah and Bodhidharma assured me in bizarre unison as they appeared. "This conglomerate of animated dust and soul you live through would be as much at a loss without us as without Him."

These potent words shook me loose from the mind sets and guarded heart I'd held. I gratefully understood that these two archetypes are twin prongs, wondrous complements as well as clashing torments. They are an imponderable paradox whereby my soul can engage in the Four Square Realm of ten thousand things.

Though they appear to be diametrically opposed, together, in synergy, they are the means for my soul to span this last quantum leap from the soul Astral Realm to the Four Square Realm of beings and things. My role in Cosmosis calls me into the here and now, into duality and passing time.

But now I had perspectives from my visionary Journey through the four Realms that gave me vastly different ways to hold this 'me', opened to my corresponding levels of consciousness. Although I was immediately hypnotized at being back in my egoic personality and body, back into its limitations and distortions of it's perceived reality, my other levels of knowing and perception didn't disappear completely.

That especially helped in revisioning the dynamics between Ookmah and Bodhidharma. Till then, treating them as an unavoidable either/or had also contributed to that heartache in my life. Instead of their needing to be dismembering adversaries wrenching me back and forth, I found I could know them as polarities in service to higher purpose through my being. Their seesaw balancing could be a means to give expression to my role on the Rainbow Bridge.

Bodhidharma and Ookmah hold the divine power of opposites for me. Together, they do a sacred ceremonial dance. It is a source of ecstasy, of tortuous conflict and wondrous mystery. When I can manage not to take it too personally, I see their interplay as masterful. Separately and together, they bring great depth, distress and passion to my life. They urge me, through their tormenting polarization, to create a mind and heart spacious enough to have room for them both, together.

As the purpose of Cosmosis is to materialize spirit and to spiritualize matter, the descent of Divine Intention into our specific and detailed 'here and now' is part of a reciprocal flow. In the vision consciousness, I witnessed how even the most personal and idiosyncratic aspects of my life that serve this highest purpose recirculate up through the Realms to reach Source. I saw these received with gratitude for service given to the Divine Intention, a welcoming as to a returning child. I knew myself as a devotion driven spark, yearning to be fulfilled on returning to the Flame.

The manifestation of all these Realms in my life, even in a limited, distorted guise, gives my life meaning and purpose. All Realms are permeable to each other and interpenetrate across the Rainbow Bridge. So all the stages of Cosmosis happen simultaneously. Each facet of the Process reflects every other one, in my life as well as yours.

Suffused with Divine Presence more than any other, Metatron is the hub of my Council of Helpers. Her Centered intention guides it. When I come into resonance with her Heart and Third-Eye and dissolve into their Splendor, in deepest devotion to the Eternal One, it brings me into alignment with the Divine Intention for me in my day-to-day life. I grow so immersed in the Rainbow Bridge that I come into resonance with all my Helpers. My reality shifts. I know myself as a partner with them. That truly defines who I really am and what I'm about. From that perspective of awakened self-knowing, I can witness the vast incomparable beauties and wonders of the four Realms that meld to shape every moment in my life. And merged with Highest Conscious and Love, I witness that all this vast interplay of Realms rests in the Divine Ocean of Being.

I join the processes higher consciousness Elder Brother uses to perform his sacred service in Cosmosis. A wise and ripened spirit who well grasps and uses the peculiarities of the various Realms, he reveals how to implement the Celestial messages transmitted by Metatron and her kindred angels.

Kalananda gives lifelong purpose and gift to my quest. He is a doorway in my psyche to other past lives. He teaches me what is Holy and that everything is to be placed on the Altar. But his utter separation from others leaves me the soul task of fulfilling our High Self by connecting with others as best I can with this monk's soul. This awareness opens me to more forgiveness for my own self-inflicted burden of karmas. The strongest karma I bear as his heir, is to hold the recognition that the Self I seek is the Self of all. I am to hold and reflect the truth that when anyone says 'I', they can only mean their divine essence. Nothing else has true identity.

As I work my life on the Earth Plane with the partners, Ookmah and Bodhidharma, more consciously and open heartedly, we three learn and evolve with each other. Through their continual interplay, they are my polarities and the paradox that empowers me to engage in the world, to express and manifest my soul's purpose. Their oppositeness makes this more clearly formed, perhaps less compromised by the forces of circumstance and whimsy.

When I am a member of my Council of Helpers with devotional intention, a peace and rightness confirm that my soul and spirit are in alignment with Divine Intention. The unfulfilled challenges and possibilities in my life are intimately and compassionately witnessed by my Helpers who reshape my calling and capacity in the Divine Intention. The moments are touched with the vast beauty of this universal interplay between calling and compensation, Intention and fulfillment. The sacred process of Cosmosis is both awing and forgiving.

Or, insofar as I choose, I can ignore my Council and go about things on my own, in my own human way.

            

            

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